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I’m Back Baby!

I’m Back Baby!

It has been many, many moons since I have written here and for that I am truly sorry.  I got to this place where I was depressed, unfulfilled and dealing with my many chronic illnesses.  And so, I took a break from the one thing that brings me so much solace and joy; the one outlet that fully allows me to relax, relate and release.  Why is that?  After months of introspection and wonderfully beautiful souls coming into my life, I have “found” the answer.

Writing, for me, is where truth is.  Writing would force me to address, face first, all those things that I couldn’t give words to. It would demand me to confront my deepest fears, acknowledge my failures and create a plan to move forward.  I wasn’t ready.  I wasn’t ready to admit that I didn’t have answers, I didn’t have strength, that I needed help.  And so I went into a place of deep contemplation, a place of hope and faith.  We had a Diversity & Inclusion specialist speak at our all-hands meeting last week and she had us do this ADDRESSING framework.

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We identified and accepted the many group memberships and cultural identities that we have and addressed our privilege, along with how we’ve used said privilege to our advantage and at times to the detriment of others. I was confronted with my own privilege and more so my lack thereof.  I was thunderstruck and left breathless by the realization that I downplay my own accomplishments and shrink myself to make others comfortable with who I am. I do all of this to ensure that I remain gainfully employed and out of the spotlight. 

When you are centerstage you are more open to and apt to receive harsh and undeserved criticisms. In a moment of vulnerability, I gave voice to this in public, in front of (virtually anyway) my coworkers and colleagues.  And while it was cathartic, it was painful and I did what I normally don’t do… I cried off camera afterwards.  They were tears of frustration and a cleansing flood of brokenness. Mind you this was the same day that Netflix launched Homecoming by Beyoncé.  I am a proud graduate of Texas Southern University (HBCU in Houston, TX) and seeing how hard Queen Bey struggled to get back to her authentic self gave me inspiration.  Seeing and hearing a full band and Houston music (UGK, Bun B, etc.) gave me LIFE!!

And today on a video chat with a co-worker, a friend, who is transitioning out of the company that we both work for, I inadvertently gave voice to all that ailed me, while regaling him with hilarious tales of how I came to be who and what I am.  I found my voice again.  I rediscovered my shrinking self.

So I am back to my most authentic self. I’m writing short stories and screenplays, I’m back blogging, I’m doing all those artistic endeavors that bring me joy and contentment.  I’m acting, making jewelry (as recently seen on the Grammys red carpet and American Idol *eek*) and loving on those who love on me. Only He knows what happens next but I will face it with my head high and in truth.

Peace and Blessings

T. Nicole

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Somebody Go Get Donny!

Somebody Go Get Donny!

Typically I start my day early, whether I want to or not, with personal devotion time, prayer and flexing my arthritic toes for half an hour so that I am able to get up and walk. Typically I leave the ignorance, bigotry and just general jackassery that is happening in the world for later in the morning. But I deviated from my routine and looked at the news earlier than usual and was greeted by 45, President Agent Orange, and yet ANOTHER idiotic tweet. 

Why doesn’t an adult take this man’s phone and/or twitter account away from him? He obviously has no one that is willing and ballsy enough to say, “Give me that! WTH dude! You have no chill and no couth! Go eat your Cheerios and watch Ren & Stimpy!”

This is what happens when you let someone with what seems to be a severe, undiagnosed Narcissistic Personality Disorder and who is literally disassociated with reality, attempt to run what used to be the most powerful nation in the world. Before you make an attempt to blast me saying that 45 is just confident and “making America great again”, I offer you to look up the diagnosis criteria for Narcissistic Personality Disorder in the DSM-V, Psychology Today or any other reputable scientific journal. Read it for yourself and compare what you have seen with your own eyes and heard with your own ears. Not what I’ve interpreted it to be. But you have to be open and willing to accept what comes next. You will have to ready to recognize, accept and act. Narcissists are TOXIC. They take and give nothing back leaving people, places and things in utter ruin as they pass by.

Look at it and let me know what you see… don’t worry, I’ll wait…

 

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Ignorance Is In Bloom

Spring has sprung and ignorance is in the air infecting everyone in its vicinity. Like pollen triggers watery eyes, sneezing and an overall miserable state, I don’t know what it is about when winter withdraws, the weather heats up, and southern breezes blow that people start to act like they don’t have the sense that God gave a doorknob. Read the rest of this entry »

 

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My Randomness Is Showing

Yet another work week down and I’m excitingly looking forward to the time when I bolt out of the door like it’s the last day of school!

With so much going on in the news it’s hard to find the good in life.  With our daughters being kidnapped and sold into slavery, world powers at odds and unemployment just over 6% (which is actually a good thing, it’s down from 6.7% to 6.3%), it has become increasingly difficult to smile and laugh and find joy in the small things of life.  So, in an effort to add a bit of levity to all the depressing occurrences in the world, I present to you Banana Joe of “The Amazing World of Gumball” from Cartoon Network.

Enjoy and find something to smile about today!

Blessings and Happiness ALWAYS

T. Nicole

 

 

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Easter PSA

We are at the halfway mark of Holy Week and there is something that has stuck in my craw for years.  It’s time for another PSA/ “Grinds My Gears”segment.

*Drags soapbox to the middle of the room, steps up and taps mic*

Excuse me, excuse me.  May I have your attention please?

As you all gear up for Easter/Resurrection Sunday and are buying all these pastel colored dresses, Steve Harvey suits, hats, and finery, it grinds my gears when some of you people randomly do stuff  and accept things just because they are in popular culture.  Here’s a biology lesson just case you all didn’t know, rabbits/hares/bunnies DON’T lay eggs.  Never in the history of the world has a rabbit or rabbit-related organism laid a multicolored, painted, glitterfied chicken egg.  Not the Cadbury Bunny, not Bugs Bunny, no daggone bunny lays eggs!

When The Lord rose from the grave and the stone was rolled away there was not a bunny sitting at the threshold with the angel waiting to announce His resurrection.  There wasn’t a rabbit there pooping out colored hard-boiled eggs and jelly beans on top of pink plastic grass.

Just as a bit of history for you, chicken eggs were dyed red by early Christians in Mesopotamia to symbolize the blood of Jesus shed on Calvary. The shell represents the tomb of Christ and the breaking of the shell a symbolic representation of his breaking the chains of death.  The Easter egg custom was adopted by the Catholic Church in 1610 A.D. by Pope Paul V.  We as Christians can see the egg as a symbol of resurrection as the egg contains new life within it. How this morphed into adults hiding cooked eggs that were dyed the night before while watching the Ten Commandments is beyond me.  Hiding eggs in the grass, trees, bushes, under cars, etc. has to be one of the stupidest things I have seen.  Kids are fighting and pushing each other out of the way to get an egg that you know they won’t even eat, it will decay in a plastic basket next to pink and blue marshmallow Peeps that will NEVER decay.  You know that at least one of those eggs won’t be found and less than a week later as it rots in the sun, just out of sight, you will be complaining about a sulfur smell and dumbfounded as to where it is coming from.  I have no issue with Easter eggs as long as you understand and explain to kids the symbolism behind it.

To do something, anything for that matter, just because it has always been done (tradition), just because, and/or without the right context is off putting and asinine.

Your ignorance is showing, tuck it back in, nobody wants or needs to see that.

And that my lovelies is what grinds my gears!

*drops mic, climbs down off soapbox, places a purple dyed egg covered in glitter on the ground and exits stage right*

Even the bunny is confused...

Even the bunny is confused…

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Food for Thought

T. Nicole

 

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Respect My Authoritah!!

It’s time for yet another Public Service Announcement commingled with a Grinds My Gears segment.

*sashaying on stage, confident and classy as always and taps mic*

May I have your undivided attention please? While I am usually easygoing, and let things slide, I am short of patience when it comes to ignorance and idiocy. I am remiss to let some things pass.

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Hump Day Levity

Happy Hump Day my lovelies!! It’s been a rough couple of weeks for me and I need to laugh. So below is what I found last night and laughed my fool head off at! I promise I’m going to do this on my way out of the office on Friday!

How I Turn Up In the Club (Martin)

I Walk In The Club Like

 

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